day 5

I `ve skipped DAY 4, cause that was the second happiest day in my life. So, I`ll move to day 5 :)

I got SOO lost just now in LONDON and sooo upset I even swore on the street :D
I just wanted to walk home and as I had already made like 5 circles around Convent Garden and yet didn`t find nor bus stop, nor Dishuum (is it correct, LIZ?), I just caught a Tube. And you know, what I realized- there is at least one thing in LONDON I am sure  and feel confident about and that is underground.

Also- I am so eating SHIT food. Just havin` ROLTON type of soups and pastas and from time to time getting sandwich or some fastie. Really hate it and my stomach has something to say about that as well. :D

And one thing is clear- when you are alone somewhere, there is no way you are going to stay alone. It is like someone definitely is going to talk to you no matter where you are and what mood you`re in. I was so upset about one phone call that I entered the third (less crowded) pub on my way and just had a drink. And even though I was listening to my I-pod and did not look opened for a conversation at all, there was still a man who chose to offer a seat for me. And then his boss  came up as well. We talked, he bought me a drink, his boss left, he invited me to his friend`s dinner, I refused, he ran out of time, we hugged goodbyes, he left and I stayed alone. And though I was listening to my I-pod again, there was a Norwegian couple who decided to join me as well, so I had another `small talk` with them about love and scorpion stuff. :)) And then they left, but I was now ready for a party. So, I decided to meet my only friends in London at their work- Dishuum. As you can tell, it did not end well, I just got lost and now I am here, on my laptop with a bottle of beer. :)

But I guess I`ve learned to be on my own so much, I could say I am really ready to travel alone if needed and I would not rely on anyone anymore. I have my own thoughts, my own company, my own jokes and laughter. I hope this does not sound schizophrenic, but this is a good true to know, cause I`ve been blamed once for having problems to be alone.

Day number 3

Those three days have been as one long, long day. I still haven`t got the chance to realize that I am actually in London. It all started from the very first morning I spend on my own receiving text from Liz (that nice girl who let me stay at hers): “Do you want to go for one or two drinks?” As you may already guess, it didn`t end like it, because the end of that `one drink` is just now, when I am finally home (the place where my bags and stuff is).

But it has been so much fun! I`ve met already so many people being in London just for three days. Yesterday I just caught myself being in a company of 5 men – Indian, Greek, Latvian nationality - and none of them I had known longer than 24 hours. And they` re all musicians J So, I had live gig in a flat somewhere far  from center of London everyone being so stoned whereas I was completely sober. Maybe that`s because I`d been sleeping only for two hours that day, I couldn`t get any dizziness whatever I was drinking.

Indian people are soo NIICE! I can`t believe I never met any Indian before and missed that wonderful mentality people being around. They take care, they smile and they are so friendly, which is amazing. And I am grateful that I had a chance to get to know that, cause they were the ones I was always afraid of meeting on streets of London. If I didn`t get to know Shree accidently, I would never start a conversation with him myself. I guess, I still have some prejudices I need to overcome, so I am here.

And this morning was the ultimate chill- the one you want never to stop. I had the best freshly made cocktails in my life, made from strawberries, bananas, mint and what else not. And of course a lot of singing and guitar playing as well. These guys are incredible and I am soo thankful to Liz she allowed me to stay at her place and meet those wonderful people who I spend time with like I had known them for years.

I cannot really describe the atmosphere and the emotions I had this morning, but this is one of the days I will never forget in my life. Thanks to Kris, Shree, Big G as well as their manager and a girlfriend and Indian couple, especially The Girl of my dreams ;)

Still on the 1st

I`ve got my favorite UK cider and a laptop next to me. And I have ultimate harmony within me. Sometimes it is so essential just to get away from everything and everyone (even those you really love) as well as your every day routine and habits. Before I`ve only seen this in movies, but actually getting out of your comfort zone could really help for placing your thoughts in order.

If you asked me week ago, I would say I do not know, why was I doing this and what was all the point about. But somehow, deep down inside I almost instinctively followed for what`s the best for me now, and as I can see- I did right.

I really AM WALKING, WATCHING, LISTENING, paying attention to every tiny detail around me and enjoying every moment of my life. This day has been soo long you cannot compare. And I have actually done nothing and what makes me happy the most: I DO NOT PANIC, I do accept this as a part of an order.

And now I am here, on the third floor of flat somewhere in CENTER OF LONDON, I hear airplanes every second just passing by right above my head and I am welcome to make a few steps and be outside on the balcony which is more like a roof I can walk on. Isn`t that amazing? Be careful what you wish for and when it happens- enjoy and remember that you have once actually wanted that. :)

I`m still on a "HAPPINESS REAL ONLY WHEN SHARED" side, but balance is needed, and oh for so long I`ve been longing for this moment... the moment when me, myself and I am three best friends and nothing else matters.

1st day

So, I am in London. I think I still quite do not get it. :D there`s so many people around and I try to look like from here (to avoid the attention :D), but I guess it is written on my forehead: „No, people, I just arrived and this all is still interesting for me”, whereas they all look like covered with their iphones and ipods and goddamn own thoughts. I know, I know, there`s nothing extraordinary to be at this place, but for me to be alone in a foreign country is kind of a new feeling, which enables some kind of emotions I haven`t had before.

I`ve had a first proper meal in like three days now. And I still haven`t slept enough, but that is fine. 
Got the number, got the map, got the aim. This is all I need, except for my own place and job :D But that is going to be settled. So, I`ve changed the place I  wake up and this is enough to start with. 

Yesterday, when the bus entered London, I suddenly was 100% sure that this WAS and IS actually right thing to do. I had had like a hundred of scenarios flashing in my head, all of them positive and absorbing. 

And such strange feeling seeing all these places, roads and signs once again and the most surprising- it all wasn`t sadly reminding me of old times all over as I expected. Yes, I still think of him/us and the memories are going to be with me forever, but I made a new view to all of this and I do like that..